What mother can tell me she understands. QUICK. I need support. LIFE. SUPPORT.
I have turned into someone I do not know. I am literally crying if you look at me. I am literally crying if you don’t. I am literally crying all the time.
My first born is “going back to school” ~ COLLEGE that is, and I cannot get it together. I had no idea. Why did I have no idea. How. Hard. This. Would. Be.
I know millions of you have gone before me, and millions will follow, and we will all essentially be fine. But please, someone give me some real honest tips on what to do. I talk to people about positivity and moods everyday, and suddenly I am at a loss for words. Nothing. I have nothing to say to myself to feel better. I want to run away. I do not want to do this. I am afraid.
Suddenly the piles don’t bother me anymore, the attitude is actually cute, and the clothes that are missing from my closet aren’t my favorites anymore. She can have them. She can leave the mess, and she can actually talk back to me. I don’t care. I just don’t want her to go. I want everything to stay the same. We leave Monday by the way. On a plane.
Ok, Ok – of course I get it. She has to go. I want her to go. I just need some tools to adjust my mood. I need to hear stories of how it “goes fast” and she will be back home in the “blink of an eye”. Stories that it really is ok and there will be a new normal. Please share with me. Tell me that it’s really OK to be processing every single detail of her life. Remind me this is a beautiful step in her life and we will be savoring new and exciting life moments that we never knew existed between mother and daughter.